My World

recklessab4nd0n @ 2007-08-09T04:05:00

2007-08-09T08:26:38Z

Shit

I'm in virginia right now.

www.myspace.com/andsinceforgotten we're on tour right now. Pretty intense.

I love being with my band though, they are great guys and I love them dearly. Even if it gets boring at times and I miss home. In the end it's worth it though.

Things have been kinda slow. Normally I love tour but the start was kinda knocky and the fact that I saw my friends at home for the last time for the rest of forever bummed me out. When I get back they will all be off to college. :(

The past couple days have been pretty fun though. We are staying with this guy named Thomas and his family. They are extremely nice and very hospitable. It's nice to have a place to stay instead of sleeping on a van in a wal-mart parking lot...even though it dosen't make as good of a story hah. ( http://youtube.com/watch?v=FF_4Dp_jZpk )

I'm homesick :P I think that's why i'm not having as much fun this tour than the other tours..but at the same time I am having fun. It's a love hate relationship.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2007-08-05T08:34:00

2007-08-05T12:36:15Z

MDMA hates sleep.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2007-05-05T00:50:00

2007-05-16T04:54:23Z

So I haven't done this shit in a while.

What's changed.....

ummmm...My band is still going strong. Can't wait for tour www.myspace.com/andsinceforgotten

im single, its great

I skateboard again

I hate all my past entries

I've grown up alot.

I'm 18 now.

I love playing music still.

I love music still.

Music is more my life than ever and I love it.

My life lately has been music, it's great.

I graduate High School in like 25 days..........holy shit. I started this thing when I was like a freshman at Piedmont. Now i'm a senior at Porter Ridge.

I guess i'll start writting in this thing again. I need to document my life because I just relized I don't know where most of it went to.

-David

www.myspace.com/recklessab4nd0n btw incase you didnt know

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-10-14T02:55:00

2006-10-14T07:15:54Z

There are few who'd deny, at what I do I am the best
For my talents are renowned far and wide
When it comes to surprises in the moonlit night
I excel without ever even trying
With the slightest little effort of my ghostlike charms
I have seen grown men give out a shriek
With the wave of my hand, and a well-placed moan
I have swept the very bravest off their feet.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-10-12T23:07:00

2006-10-13T04:09:26Z

WHY SHOULD THEY HAVE ALL THE FUN?
IT SHOULD BELONG TO ANYONE
NOT ANYONE IN FACT BUT ME

WELL I COULD MAKE A CHRISTMAS TREE

AND THERES NO REASON I CAN FIND
I COULDN'T HANDLE A CHRISTMAS TIME!!

I BET I COULD IMPROVE IT TOO!

AND THATS EXACTLY..

..WHAT I'LL DO!

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-05-17T22:08:00

2006-05-18T02:09:19Z

If I was Cloud....

...would you be my Aeris?

..Tifa works too.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-05-16T23:26:00

2006-05-17T03:40:48Z

YA HI!

This is my first entry in a long long time.

And this is me doing it for myself.

And this is also for the girl i've really had my eye on for a few weeks now.

And this is also me being happy.

I'm sure that my crazy internet journal would love to hear about what happened to that chick that will never be named again. Well it turns out that everyone was right and she is nothing but a silly confused little girl and it took so long for stupid me to relize that I can't stand her and hope the I and her never come into contact again for the rest of our lifes. There is more and more to it butttt i'd rather say nothing at all since I cannot say anything nice.

Ever since I relized these things a couple weeks ago I have been so much happier and had a better outlook on things...like life. Don't let some stupid chick ruin it for you. Cause I let that happen for a while and it SUCKS!

But the gooood news is that i've been chatting with a girl that I have mucho mucho feelings for. She seem's to actully apricieate someone who would care for her, and be there for her, and do things to make her happy, and just make her smile/laugh/be happy and everything. Sadly I haven't been able to see this girl as much as I would like to lately...but hopefully our time will come.

I could go on and on...but trust me, she's great.

As for work. I work at subway. Non-stop. But the pay is gooooood! :D I bought an iPod and I love it to death. It's rad as hell. And AFI is amazing. I've been listening to them non-stop lately. (New cd 6/6/06)

And I was real sick last week..bad broncitis and a trip to the hospital :P

I'm all better now thank god lol :)

Life is gooooooood and i'm likin' it. I hope that it stays this way for a while.

<3

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-04-30T22:29:00

2006-05-01T02:40:16Z

So I hope your happy with the choices you made.

And I hope your happy for tearing me apart.

See what heart-ache has done?

Drag the fucking lake indeed. You will find its full of love...and hate. But I don't know if thats me talking or i'm "Caught In the moment" from listening to really loud Everytime I Die.

Sometimes I feel like I hate everything.

And sometimes I feel like I miss you soooo much.

Then I feel like "well fuck you than. I dont need you. You'd rather be with that then someone like me?...then it's not worth even being sad over" but god dammit I fucking miss you.

Why did you do this to me???? Why did you fill me head and heart with LIES? and just break my heart over and over and over and over and over and over......I think that's right I lost count.

and the weak little boy I am I crawl back for more.

What the fuck is wrong with me????

Where is my head?
Where is my heart?????

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-04-14T19:40:00

2006-04-14T23:44:05Z

I've spent soo much money on prom lol

I got my tux today! :D

My parents got it for me but i'm gonna pay them back cause it was alooooot!!

But I don't care at all because when it comes to just making her night as wonderful as it can be money is no object!

Oh how I love her and just for another night with her it's all worth it!!

I have the best prom date I could ask for because I am madly in love with this girl as you all know. I can't wait to see how beautiful she is in her lovely dress. No matter how it looks im sure she will be extemely lovely!!

Thats about it. I love her alright.

Wish I wasn't single ;)

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-04-04T20:20:00

2006-04-05T00:20:50Z

god damnit David.

I Love You.

:]

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-31T07:58:00

2006-03-31T12:58:49Z

Come here, please hold my hand, Lord, now
Help me, I'm scared please show me how
To fight this, God has a master plan
And I guess, I am in his demand

Please save me, this time I cannot run
And I'll see, you when this is done
And now I, have come to realize
That you are, the one who's left behind

Please stay untill I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me
I'm right here waiting

I see, the light it feels good
And I'll come, back soon just like you would
It's use less, my name has made the list
And I wish, I gave you one last kiss

Please stay untill I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me
I'm right here waiting
And take my one last breath
And don't forget
That I will be right here waiting

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-29T15:55:00

2006-03-29T20:56:27Z

Try.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-27T23:05:00

2006-03-28T04:05:15Z

I love to hear you talk.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-26T20:09:00

2006-03-27T01:11:32Z

If you gave me a chance I could make every night just like last night.

We could just go do stupid stuff and laugh and smile for hours and hours....

We could be stupid and then just laugh at it.

Like, remember how when we were running around and around and laughing and just going crazy..that could be fun fun all the time!!! >.<

pleaseeeeeeee I LOVE YOU KASGJKLJ!J KLJLKAJLKJ LK!!!!

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-26T11:59:00

2006-03-26T17:01:51Z

Me and kelli went to a crazy cool party last night and it was amazing fun fun fun fun.

I miss all my friends..I haven't talked to some of them in a while and last night was great. All because I got to see Chelsea a lot. She is sooooo cool. For Real. Really cool.

I kissed so many dudes i don't even think i want kelli back O_O (i'm lying.)

and uhhh yeah.

<3

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-24T23:22:00

2006-03-25T04:23:11Z

The next day's new low..

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-24T15:56:00

2006-03-24T20:58:45Z

I'm so tired....and I'm weak.

I'm upset over a girl that wont get out of my head.

I wish she was back here like she was a week ago....laying in my bed with me.....

How could you do all those things just to leave?

oh yeah..your boyfriend is an asshole.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-23T15:39:00

2006-03-23T20:41:24Z

kelli

The girl that has been in my head for a while now..

You didn't ruin my life....but you sure fucked it up.

And I wan't my heart back...I need my heart back..

...but you can keep it if you want.

I love you :(

EDIT: I need to stop looking out the window every time a car comes by...cause I know it's not you :P

But I left my heart at the side of her bed and she's got the warmest body that I've ever had.
Drag the lake, you'll find it's full of love. Bring the children to the water and let them see what heartache did.

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-22T20:58:00

2006-03-23T01:59:18Z

wow that was the craziest, maddest, saddest, post ever......I couldn't let you read it..it would tear you apart :(

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-21T23:27:00

2006-03-22T04:30:18Z

Another day goes by and another day without you :(

I'm still upset but atleast I had Tessa to talk to.

Thank you Tessa...thanks for listening to me complain about heartbreak, heartache and everything I hate in the world. It means alot that someone listens and cares about stuff...there needs to be more people like you. So thanks for being there Tessa. One of the most intellegent people I know and oh so easy to talk to.

But I still can't stop thinking about the one girl....I miss you so much. :/

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-21T16:53:00

2006-03-21T22:02:49Z

So today my heart hurt worse than yesterday. I thought about when she kissed me in her car in my driveway and just felt like I needed an emotional breakdown. All the things that happened between us are gone forever...all gone. It hurts so bad. Oh so bad.

Oh so bad.

Just thinking about her kissing me on the cheek then bringing me toward her just to have me hold her makes me want to throw up. Not throw up as in I hate her and hated doing that..throw up because i'm that upset that I'm not doing it anymore..

If I would have known out last kiss was going to be you pulling me inside of your car to kiss you and make you feel better I would have made it alot better

You led me on again. And I let you. And you and I both knew that everything was going to be fine. We knew we were going to be together. And you knew you were making me the happiest person ever...well now I feel like the saddest person ever. And I feel like I won't be able to get over this for a long time.

It's just so hard to let go...I don't see how you can do it so easily after this weekend....After all of that how?

And why do I still care about you? Why do I still love you? Why do I still think about you all the time?....why do I hope your happy with that other guy when in fact I wish you would come back to me?

...I just want you to be happy...but I wanted you to be happy with me...

So once again. I'm sorry for all of this..but I love you. :(

nothing ever works for david

2006-03-21T04:27:56Z

fuck life, nothing ever works out. I dont even know why i tried. Im just a little emo bitch with too much free time and too much love and affection for someone who dosen't even give me a chance.

I just have my heart broken, smashed, burned, torn, and spit on only to love her like I did before...I don't want this feeling. All it does is make me the happiest person ever then takes me to a new low each time.

fuck.

Why did I find this feeling while im 17 years old..I dont want this. I dont want to love her this much. I dont want to have to let her go..........

I wish that everything was like it was when you told me you never wanted to leave my arms just yesterday. When you came over just for me to hold you and kiss you and tell you that everything is going to be alright. What was that if it wasn't love? or this so called "love" that they say it is.

well if this is love then FUCK love. FUCK heartbreak and FUCK everyhting I ever felt was right.

I'm just a guy who always tried..I'm just a stupid FUCK with BRILLIANT luck and sometimes a bright idea. So please just shower me in your words of confedince which i DONT deserve.

..well god damn it, I might run but i'll never hide.

and why do I still love her?????????????????????????????????? after breaking my heart and smashing me to pieces and making my life an emotional rollercoaster from the happiest place ever to the very depths of hell, why do I still love her?

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-20T18:09:00

2006-03-20T23:13:09Z

It looks like things are going to go good afterall...ya know.

I told her everything will be alright and she belived me. I'm very happy right now actully. I wish I could show it more but I am really really tired >.<

Me and her went out to taco bell :D and to see Les Misrables the other day. The play/musical was amazing but so was holding her hands for about 4 hours :)

I feel love again and it is strikingly happy. The scent of her hair remained on my pillow all night. I fell asleep with the scent in my head. Thinking about how not long ago she was lying there in my arms. Amazing eh?

:)

<3I cant wait for her to get here today :)

recklessab4nd0n @ 2006-03-19T08:29:00

2006-03-19T13:30:56Z

I love moments like last night.

She knows what i'm talking about :)

I've posted these lyrics before...but here they are again..it sums up last night.

I still taste our last kiss
Her name still falls from my lips

Just those two lines haha.

<3

An empty heart replaced with paranoia

2006-03-18T03:12:57Z

I know i'll get it right but I don't know when.
I'll open my eyes i've got something inside
I'll just jack off in my room until then.

I love the blink.

But I hate watching your car drive off and wishing you didn't have to leave.
But thank you for coming over and showing that you actully care.

I miss you, I miss you....